In the second week of February 2021, I had my first MRI brain scan. I went to the hospital by public transport, because I don’t like driving with bad concentration. That was a good decision because on the way back I got lost by getting on the wrong tram wondering where I was going to.
I found it a bit frightening when I experienced the heaviness on my chest and palpitations while I was in the scanner. Further, it went fine. When I got the results after one week, the neurologist said they didn’t find anything alarming in the reasons the scan was made.
So the strange things in my head twice, headaches, tiredness, the lack of concentration, inability to read and comprehend, wordfinding problems in speaking, writing as fill-in-the-blanks text necessary to read by someone else, forgetting things, getting lost are all because of Covid-19? And tests, extensive lab draws, dementia test, physical examination, and a scan don’t show anything?
I already knew I could expect this, but I’m still in disbelieve. How is it possible to feel ill and stuck in your own body while specialists can’t find a thing? My neurologist recommended a doctor for medical rehabilitation, to help me get my life back on track. That’s what I need right now. I know I’m handling it all very well, and I manage to stay as positive as possible. But I need someone to help me overcome the setbacks because they are harder to overcome every time.
I’m happy I can speak with my psychological supporter again. I wasn’t allowed to speak to her anymore because of the mediation with my employer. The fewer people knew about it, the better. Months later it seemed I was allowed after all because of her professional confidentiality.
