It makes me sad that small activities I did before don’t come naturally anymore. They cost me much more effort and are exhausting. I get reminded of those things every minute of the day. That made me think about the influence these feelings of incapacity have on my recovery.
As I don’t feel stressed, if somebody else was in it I would call it a stressful situation. And I’m in it for over a year. Stress makes your body produce more Cortisol. And when we speak about chronic stress, we stew in our own stress juices. Brain cells get killed, the brain shrinks, it can even cause dementia.
The Long Covid symptoms harm my Reticular Activating System (R.A.S.) and stimulate it to grow negativity. Because of my lack of senses, I get overwhelmed and distracted all the time. My lack of senses is something I can’t change, but I can change my mindset about this nasty situation I’m living in. By taking small simple steps I can create a more positive flow. Practicing reading and mental activities, followed by a practical task and rest are advised. I need to take lots of rest, because I’m living on spare energy.
As I journal my day, I take time in the evening to be thankful for things that worked out great that day. It can be a meditation that I loved doing, preparing a healthy homemade meal, more focus and concentration during a conversation. Things I did on autopilot before, have become big achievements now. By being thankful I know I can program my R.A.S. in a positive way. As small as it seems right now, small simple steps lead to big results…
