A week later, as planned, I met my supervisor at the mediator. The appointment was scheduled a week earlier because I got the agreement papers just before the scheduled meeting. Because of my mental problems, I couldn’t read and sign the agreement just before or during the appointment. I had trouble reading and concentrating, and with a stressful appointment ahead of me, that didn’t work.
When I went there, I was still in pain. The meeting took all of my physical and mental energy. I was preparing and worrying for two weeks, and because of the confidentiality of these meetings, I wasn’t allowed to talk about it. I was allowed to speak with my lawyer because he signed a confidential agreement. I wasn’t allowed to talk to my psychical practice supporter, even if it was the company doctor who advised me to talk to her during this difficult period.
That week I had words with the absence consultant again about an appointment with the company doctor I had to make. He wanted me to contact my supervisor to reschedule the appointment because of a mistake he made, making the appointment. I got agitated. And eventually, he arranged a new appointment. After many explanations about my health, condition, and situation with my supervisor, I still didn’t feel understood by this man. When he talked to me, he sometimes used the same words and language my supervisor did.
I was sleeping longer and more often than the weeks before the mediation started. Sporting was more difficult, and I didn’t enjoy it anymore because of my calf’s pain. I contacted my general practitioner again. At the appointment, I got another general practitioner. She was worried I had a blood clot again and gave me referrals for a vein specialist and an orthopedist. I was thinking it was stress, because of what doctors told me before. And what I had gone through with my supervisor and absence consultant, where I felt a lot of unbelieve.
